She has my ring, but you have my heart

Dear Samantha,
The first time I saw you, I would never have believed that I would be the person to cause you so much pain. I have tried to live a life of honour, keep my promises as a man should, and although this breaks my heart, it is something I must do.

First impressions matter much, and about you I was not wrong. Watching you, I knew there was nothing in life I wanted more. Your calm beauty, grace, soft laughter, the kindness in your eyes, you reached deep inside me, touched places that I did not even know existed. I envied the man you held dear. What else would such a man desire in life?

Indeed what else would I desire when I had you in my life Samantha? The girl of my dreams; she was right there, and all I could do was watch from a distance. We were different people, you would not have understood that all my life I had been waiting for you, for a moment like this. But I had to leave everything I desired, and with a heaviness in my heart, I walked away from you. I wanted you, but you were not for me. You and him looked happy together.

It was best that way, we do not always get what we want in life. I walked away to make a life without you, and for a while, I convinced myself that I was happy. I tried to forget about you, and for a while, I believed I would make it.

But fate plays cruel tricks. Our paths were yet to cross again. I would have the one person I desired most, and she would love me back. My sweet Samantha, the past one year of my life has been the happiest of my life. I was never wrong about you; you are indeed a magnificent woman, the best of them all, but like you were not for me then, I am not for you now, and never will be.

You see, I am already taken. I belong to another. She is the woman I have promised my heart for the rest of my life.
I have looked you in the eyes, and have seen that you could make me happy as no man has ever been for the rest of my life, but I cannot do this. The things that define me; honour and honesty bind me to a promise I made.

She has been kind and good to me, in my moments of loneliness when I wandered lost and confused, she was there for me. We were there for each other, and though she will never compare to you, her happiness depends on my decision.

So I must do the right thing. I must break your heart to save hers. This very night, a year ago, I held her hand to my chest, and asked her to marry me. I did not know that the very next day, you would come back into my life.

I am not strong enough to look you in the eyes and tell you this. I cannot even be there to try and make sense of this. By the time you get this, I will be walking down the aisle with the woman I had taught myself to love until you came and showed me what true love is.

I do not ask for your forgiveness that would be too much. But I know you understand that I have got to do this, if I am to ever stand tall again, and call myself a man.

Yours Forever,
Eugene