Heart to Heart
I have lost that golden intimacy
Posted Thursday, August 21 2014 at 01:00
John Ssegawa is an actor, film-maker, director, playwright and businessman. He has been in love before and officially had two women in his life, the mothers of his two boys. The relationships with both didn’t work out though, but the two amicably agreed to raise their children. Edgar R. Batte spoke to the 43-year-old father, who reveals why he is comfortable about his single status.
Do you have a woman in your life?
That is a tricky question. I do not have one.
You are a presentable man who potentially attracts a lot of women...
I do not know. There are funny things people like about someone. I may have the attributes that women love about men but I have no woman.
But I have severally seen you in company of women, so what is it that they like about you?
I do not ask them about that but I think there are so many things. Some will like the way I look, while others will like my profession because I am an artiste and I am on their screens from time to time. Some will like my structure, my dreads or the way I dress up…there are so many things.
You have dated Mariam Ndagire and Ruth Wanyana, what drew you to them?
I call them my friends. They have special attributes and there is an attraction between us because I have a family with them; we have children involved. The other thing is that they are good mothers.
So, do you look out for plus-size women?
Not quite, but I do appreciate them because they are African and I like African women.
What kind of relationship do you have with them?
I have to be a father and they have to be mothers to our children. That is the special relationship we have.
Are you still interested in love?
Ah, love, love, love. I think I have lost that bit in my life. I think I still love women but that golden intimacy is gone. I don’t think I have it anymore.
What makes you say that?
It is because of my past. I think it is not proper for me to engage or bring in another person in my life. It will be difficult for her and I will have to be sensitive about how she comes in, and when she does, she will have all these questions. Then the other two women will be involved. When will the drama stop?
The challenge aside, how do you handle the attention that you get from women who hit on you?
Women will always be there. Women will always come onto you.
How do you handle them?
There are girls who really like me and they call me and do so many things for me, but all I do is engage them and we discuss life.
What is the boldest move a woman has pulled on you?
There are so many things that women do. Women think they can come loaded and do all things possible to get you down. They forget they can be victims of the tricks that they come with. I resist all this because at the end of the day, like I told you, I already have women in my life.
For example, women will ask for outings and I will tell them I don’t have money for such and when they see me in a good car they will think I am lying. So you have to be ready to answer those questions and you have to be ready to be yourself. There are so many people who come to me, and each comes promising this and that but when will all this end? I like being responsible for the decisions I make; it is like when driving a car, you know when to step on the brakes.
Any man gets lonely at some point. What do you do in such a situation?
I have a lot of female friends. So I always go out with them, sit, chat and do many other things.
But you will need someone to satisfy your intimate or sexual desires.
That is private (breaks out into laughter).
If God was to bring you a woman, what kind would you wish to settle with?
The woman I would love to settle with should be able to understand me and my past and that it will always be there because I cannot erase it. This history includes two women with my children. She must also be able to believe in me at any given time. There should be no regrets. And trust me, that is a very hard decision for a woman to make because it is hard to find somebody who can accommodate all that, because, as you know, love is jealous. She will be jealous, then she will start demanding for children and then I will have to explain to my sons that this is a new relationship. It is difficult, but not impossible.
Do you stay with your children?
No, I do not stay with them. They stay with their mothers but we have learnt how to go about it. They have visits to my home and during school visitations I am there with their mothers. We try to make sure that the children do not feel there is a big gap between us. I love my boys so much.