Confessions of a silly woman

A few years ago I had a similar crush on a workmate. COURTESY PHOTO

What you need to know:

  • Having a crush on a workmate is an everyday occurrence.
  • The question is, short of announcing it to all and sundry, how do you let him know in a subtle way?
  • I have a crush on my boss.
  • Usually, these are the easiest to handle because they feel they are entitled to all women in the workplace.
  • And he is that kind.

Having a crush on a workmate is an everyday occurrence. The question is, short of announcing it to all and sundry, how do you let him know in a subtle way? I have a crush on my boss. Usually, these are the easiest to handle because they feel they are entitled to all women in the workplace.

And he is that kind. It is a burden I have been carrying in my heart for the last five months. So, the precaution I take is that I do not go along whenever there is a drink-up with my colleagues because I know that three glasses of white wine will loosen my tongue.

I can imagine the shame of my telling them that I have a crush on the boss and then, having to face their sly looks in the morning. It happened to me before; you know, once beaten, twice shy.
A few years ago I had a similar crush on a workmate. It was an open secret. What I did not know was that he also had a crush on me and had been asking around about me. So in my naivete I drank too much at the Christmas party and let the cat out of the bag.

Oh! I was embarrassed the next day when I remembered the things I had said. Luckily, he took this as an open invitation and we began dating. We parted company after a few years.

Now, I do not want to face the same embarrassment because the boss has not yet shown any sign of interest in me. If anything, whenever we interact – which is rarely – he is all business-minded. The heart is such a treacherous thing. A few days ago, I almost made a mistake when my fingers took on a life of their own and typed out some rubbish.

I was sending a flirting email to a friend and instead of clicking on his name, I clicked my boss’ name. And then, I hit the send button! Thank God for miracles. I decided to reread the email in the ‘sent’ folder but it was not there. It was still in the ‘outbox’ because there was a slight interruption in the network.

I panicked! I hurried to delete it before the system could send it. I am still worried though. What if, somehow, the system sent him the email and it was just delaying in my outbox? Dear God, have mercy on this stupid single woman.